What's my blog about?

What's this blog all about? 

Well hello there! It's come to my attention that many of you may not be aware I do actually have a blog! Yep, that's right, I don't just vlog in youtube! I have a written blog too! This is it and I adore it! Please take some time to have a little browse around through some of my previous posts! 

To be honest, my blog doesn't have one certain 'subject matter' I just see it as a place of positivity, feel good and uplifting content! I can talk about anything and everything on here, from beauty to fashion, books, tv and movies, friendships & relationships, dreams and goals....

My only aim on here is to make a difference! Maybe that difference will be to give a woman who's feeling low because she hates the dark circles under her eyes the skills and right products to cover them, or maybe it will be giving someone the confidence to chase their dreams! Maybe it will be a bit of reassurance for someone who feels a bit lost, or maybe it will be a bit of good old big sisterly advice on boys! (Or male friendly advice on those un fathomable creatures they call women?) 

I just aim to write things that make a difference to people! And as long as I achieve that, I'm happy :) 

So...what subjects would you like to see me write and talk about? Because I'm going to be blogging a LOT more in 2015! 

Love Helen xx

My dreams revealed!

I'm never very vocal about what I want out of life, what my aims, ambitions, goals and dreams are but I do have them! 

I guess I'm not alone in being quite shy about my dreams, almost embarrassed by them! Of couse some of them are completely unrealistic, they are dreams after all! 

I've decided to share my aims, goals, dreams and ambitions in this blog post so that you can hear all about them! 

Maybe you'll laugh, maybe you'll agree they're things you'd like too and maybe, just maybe it will inspire you to write a list of your own dreams too! 

Work / job

My dream career is definitely in media / journalism. I'd love to become successful enough on Youtube that it could be my full time job. A full time vlogger where I am my own boss! Alternatively an independant blogger with my own successful blog like this one! 

If that doesn't work out for me I'd love to be columnist in a women's magazine. A newspaper reporter or a tv presenter. I've actually always fancied being a QVC presenter! I think I'd actually be really good at that! 

Kids

I have always wanted children and I always thought I'd have them when I was quite young! so far I haven't had any (I'm 31 and married) I think at the moment my priorities are elsewhere and having a baby isn't top of my to do list right now, so it's safe to say it's still on my to do list but it's not at the forefront just yet! I feel like I'm just finding my stride in life and I'm not ready to take a pause! I always though I'd like 2 children but honestly I'd feel really blessed and lucky to get just one! 

Financial

If I was very successful and could have a palacial mansion with 4 car garage and tennis courts I wouldn't say no but honestly if my standard of living never improves from the one I have now I won't complain because I already have a lot more that I ever thought I would and a lot of people in poorer countries could ever dream of having! 

Love

Given that I'm already married I just hope that I will always feel loved and wanted. Cared for an happy. I hope I will always make my husband feel the same! The fairytale wedding and the whirlwind romance are long gone now, so I'm just grateful I had them and I cherish the memories! 

Changing the world

I'd love to think that I can make a difference to people, even if it's only a small difference like getting people to be more confident or to motivate people to achieve their dreams! I'd love to this through my youtube and blogging! 

If I won the lottery

My dream if I ever won the lottery is this:

I'd buy a farm, build a huge lovely country home and set up an animal shelter and take in any unwanted animals that were in need of a home. I'd then care for, rehabilitate and rehome them where possible, but if for whatever reason they couldn't be rehomed they'd have a home for life at the shelter! No animal would ever get put down for simply being homeless! I'd cover their vets bills etc... And employ a team to look after them hence creating jobs! (plus get stuck in myself so I'd never get bored) 

I'd take any animals, cats, dogs, rabbits and Guinnea pigs, horses & ponys, birds, farm animals & even more unusual animals like bats, hedgehogs and birds of prey! It would be like a petting zoo! That would make me SO happy and keep me down to earth and busy! I know Stephen would love this too as we've talked about it many times! It's 100% happening if our numbers ever come up! Forget retiring to a paradise island...I'd use my money to make a difference and continue living in good old England! 

Published

I want to write seriously and get a piece of my work published! Just an article or a column! I'd be so proud! 

One day I'd like to write and publish my own book! 

Travel

Two places I HAVE to go to are Paris and Rome

Fame 

I would like to be famous! Maybe not one direction famous where you can't leave your house for fear of being mobbed, but I'd like to be well known, respected and admired! 

Silly dreams

1. Owning a pair of Manolo Blahniks

2. Going on a private yacht to Monaco

3. A date with Liam from one direction

4. Hitting 1 million youtube subscribers

5. Winning an award for writing a book

6. Collaborating with Danisnotonfire

7. Walking a Hollywood red carpet

8. Going to a movie premiere

9. Appearing on tv as a special guest

10....... Saving space for future dreams....

Being Yourself

Being yourself should be the easiest thing in the world. After all that's exactly who you are! 

Yet so much of the time, so many of us are afraid to be exactly that.

Society, jobs, the media and even peer pressure all influence the way we present ourselves and we are terrified of being judged, ridiculed or outcast, so instead of being unapologetically ourselves and the fabulous unique indeviduals that we are, we put up a front and in some cases even play a fictional role and be someone else because it's easier. Or at least we perceive it to be easier.

Outwardly this can be the way a person dresses, styles their hair, wears their makeup or holds themselves. 

Inwardly it could be holding back their personality, sense of humour or values, sexuality, dreams or desires.

I have met so many people who, if they just had the confidence to be themselves, could conquer anything and live their dreams, even take over the world and bring about real positive change, but they're too scared to put themselves out there incase they are judged or too scared to chase what they really want because they are afraid to fail. 

It's human nature to want to be accepted and liked, we all strive for that, consciously or not. It's nice to be 'normal' but something people fail to realise is that 'normal' people aren't the ones who change the world, it's the ones who break the mould that do. Maybe if you had the confidence to be you, it would inspire others?

Often we feel that our hands are tied, family, friends, employers or peers simply wouldn't accept us if we revealed the true version of us. Sometimes we are not allowed to be us or we'd lose our jobs! Employers literally banish any uniqueness by insisting on a uniform, banning piercings and tattoos, hairstyles and even tell us we must toughen up our personalities and stop being too 'nice' Hardly helpful! You can't change who you are! They shouldn't expect you to! 

The truth is nobody is normal, not really, because normal doesn't exist. Everyone is different. On the inside we all have different dreams and ideals, different fears and passions. Normal only exists because people conceal these things because they are too afraid if being seen as eccentric. 

How this relates to me:

Last year for the first time in my life I truly found myself. I found the confidence to do what I want to do, to be who I am. I started my youtube channel and put myself out there, flaws and all and you know what? For the first time in my life I found true contentment. I found contentment because I admitted to being who I am:

Yes, I look like complete crap when I've just woke up in a morning, yes I probably spend far too much time dreaming about a life I'll never have, yes I like being centre of attention and yes I am just a little bit chubby. Yes I buy farrrr too much makeup and yes I talk to my cats like they're my children, yes I do have OCD and like washing my hands a lot and yes I do like boybands even though I'm 30. Yes I do work in a supermarket even though I've got good qualifications and yes I dream of being a writer, yes I laugh at stupid things and yes I smoke when I know it's dangerous,Yes, I'm a soft touch, too nice for my own good, yes I've made a million mistakes and yes I am scared of a lot of things.

When I decided to start my youtube channel I braced myself for the hate, what I didn't brace myself for was where it would come from. I expected it to be strangers when in fact it was people closer to me. Family and friends who didn't support me, laughed at me and told me I was a loser but I faught back and I told them I was doing it with or without their blessing because it was what I wanted to do. Eventually people either supported me because they saw it made me happy or I cut them from my life, because if they can't accept me for who I am and what I want then they have no place in my life! 

On the contrast I got letters and cards from strangers all over the world who watched me on youtube and said I inspired them, they liked me and they supported me, so I lost friends but I gained many many more good supportive friends in the process! 

That's the thing you see, anybody who can't accept the real you doesn't deserve to be a part of your life! Maybe your old peer group won't like it, but it won't be long until you find a new group of friends that love the real you! And surely that's better! 

I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments below xx

You can also find me on: 

Twitter @helen_ann

Youtube: www.youtube.com/beautyandhelen

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